Life note

Today was a not so good day. It's been a long time since I've posted a blog, so why not today?

Let me start by saying that I have to be honest with myself before I can be honest with everyone else around me.

Life can be incredibly stressful. So stressful in fact that with the right(or wrong) set of circumstances, a life altering or ending decision can be made that affects more people than you realize. I've been there. It's not a good place to be. Those that have to deal with the emotional fall out will never be the same, nor will they treat you the same.


I thought I would miss how things used to be so black and white. Grey is where I live right now. Grey skies. Grey, grey, grey. The rain in my city that has been non stop for the past week is a mirror of how I'm feeling. Yet, I had an epiphany while I walked for several miles in the dampness of a fog which can only be described as the taste of dew in the forest when it gets stuck in your throat. A walk. No destination. Just right foot, left foot, right foot. No thinking. Oblivious to everything but stop lights and traffic signals. It was daunting and purifying simultaneously. Why haven't I ever felt like this before? Did standing on the brink of the unknown open up senses that I once thought had abandoned me? What does it mean to have clenched teeth and fists without anyone to be angry with, but yourself? Who does that? Am I crazy? Have I been projecting my anger onto those in my circle? Probably so. Fuck!

People passing by reminded me that as much I wanted to be by myself and in the moment, there are billions of people on this planet. Buses with the screeching sounds of brakes and the stench from exhaust fumes were irritations. And I have no idea why. Some young lady attempted to get my attention and as me " Are you a registered voter?" I replied with an affirmative response and walked away. Rude! and I didn't give a rat's ass.

I'm cold and my clothes are soaked. Coffee should help. Getgo is a block or so away. Walkin faster with a purpose. Left foot, right foot, left foot. "Fuck you, dude" I need the french vanilla dispenser. I pour a cup, it spills. WTF?! Schleprock or Murphy's Law. The frozen chicken should be thawed out. ESPN on the little TV's are saying Cleveland's NBA lottery picks don't mean shit. True dat. Random thoughts.

It's cold in this motherfucker. They have the AC on. UGH! Two(24)oz cups later, I'm out.

$2.25 to get on the RTA. For one way? Rip off! Bitch, I don't want to hear your entire cell phone conversation. And she's wearing pajama pants. Punk ass kid. It's fuckin forty something degrees outside.

Three streets from the house. Heart racing. Anxious. Nervous.

I have forgotten how to talk from the heart. Punk. Grow a set of balls. I used to be able to do that pretty easily. What happened? Fuck. Shit. Damn.

Orange light is on.

I got nothing. I.am.still.a.fucking.coward.

Uncoventional road to discovery that still has me petrified.

Open the door. Open your mouth. Man up.

I have a headache.

Love life, love me, love friends and family, love her.

Still cold. Skitty is warm.

Lost.

Lost Siblings Reunion Day!

We interrupt your day for this urgent news bulletin. No efforts have been spared in making dreams come true. Our investigations have uncovered yet more joyous siblings that were brought together by sheer chance.

Our mission statement is all about the family and we will never give up on helping the world.

I know that some of us have heard that we have a twin somewhere in the world. We may never get to see the person that has striking resemblance to our facial features. So we will try to dedicate various posts to bring loved ones together and reunite siblings that otherwise may not have ever had a chance to bond. Recent articles have proven that siblings can indeed meet, fall in love and marry. ewwwwwwww!

This is the philanthropic side of D.C. I know it's hard to believe but I must help save the world one set of siblings at a time.

For the next installment, we give you:

Lisa Bonet and Captain Jack Sparrow

If you know of any siblings that are looking for their family, please notify us immediately.

Ladies, please be on the lookout for...

this very clever scheme to take advantage of women of all shapes, sizes, color and age.

Happy Friday, peeps!

This has been my public service announcement!

Here comes trouble...

This is a blow off some steam post. The people that would need to see it probably won't and if they did, wouldn't think it applied to them anyway.

Recently, I've been thinking about toxic people and holding onto toxic relationships. It's not a good look. I am more than familiar with the sayin"just because you grow up with someone doesn't make them your friend". Truer words have never been spoken.

Most people don't expect trouble in the guise of family and friends. But experience has taught me this. Everyone is capable of verbally, emotionally, physically and mentally dragging you through the dirt. We think that family would normally keep it 100%. Wrong! We think that our friends wouldn't betray us. Wronger! Hell, our friends are by choice. We can't pick family.

So I say this to all toxic people in or around me and mine.

Stay the fuck away! Period!

This has been my Public Service Announcement.

As a native Clevelander and a hometown fan of all sports...

I find this commercial to be quite entertaining.

Something needs to happen to bring excitement back to Cleveland Sports fans. Although I don't think basketball fans would find it too appealing.

Enjoy!

Ordering Pizza in the seriously not too distant future...

The quest to order a pizza should never be as difficult as this Click Here!!

Next time you call and make an order...Be very afraid!!!!

BE VERY AFRAID

Sometimes I need...

to be reminded why I love cats so much.

I thought this type of stuff only happened in the movies or for tv commercials.

WTF!!!